See the fire and feel my claws; I am one and above vicious and alone.
No one can hold me accountable for my power. I must impose self-regulation or become saturated in the power that I have grown into.
On synesthete.org, there is a test you can take to prove that you have synesthesia, scientifically. For all the marbles. No more can anyone can doubt you, like they often do. It is an empirical test that can quantify if you are making up your “ability” or if you really do have the rare, neurological condition. The test is simple. Pick what kinds of synesthesia you have, and then choose what color is associated with whatever character/attribute appears on the screen. Below is a letter I wrote to the admin of this site, after attempting to take the Synesthesia Battery.
I recently read an article about crying that brought to light an old point I’d cooked up. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to reframe feminine traits that the patriarchy has vilified. The subtle inculcations of at a male-based society can seem quite benign at first, then dastardly pernicious.
Our society spends a lot of time in a culture where we speak to each other silently. The difference between verbal and nonverbal communication has long been researched, but many studies still focus on face-to-face conversation. In the silent communication of IM, email, and texting, nonverbal cues are simply not present.
I often wrestle with the more spiritual aspects of reality. It causes me great internal frustration to see my friends and society at large discount spirituality in favor of reductionism.
After unsuccessfully attempting (yet again) to navigate the deluge of online options for learning code, I decided that I may not be starting in the right place. Realizing this, I started to make some qualifying assessments.
So, I’m beginning to think I’m the only true extrovert I know any more. That’s an issue, because extroverts are a superior race and I’m feeling a bit isolated from my people.
Okay, so that might be a bit much, but the real issue here is that the world of technology is catered towards those who turn inward for support, rather than outward.
From a perspective of self-preservation, all actions are justifiable. All actions can contain peace.
If a situation arises in which I feel disloyalty and disrespect, I have no issues enacting whatever consequences necessary in order to free myself of the offense.
I just don’t think it’s too much to ask.
I can’t explain it
But it’s time for some figurative language.